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Some Kind Of Fix (Charity Compilation)

by Close to Home

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When you're feeling safe in your skin, Maybe we'll meet again, When you're feeling down in Kingston, Maybe we'll meet again.
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These hands are tied, yours straight to mine and it digs a trench around my wrist. Its hard to laugh with a mouth of glass, a shard for every cold dead kiss. Lynch these hands because I can’t stand the way they cling to you. I need some kind of fix, I need some kind of fix, How can I heal when, I’m just so damn sick. Run, run, until I am just a line, A foot note in your mind of where you’ve been. Young love is but a jagged edge, The part of what is left of my everything. And I can’t stand the way I cling to you.
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Smile, like it was yesterday. Make me believe that you're the same. Speak, tell me that you're ok. I'll keep biting on my tongue. I am looking at your face, As if we never made mistakes. Breathe, take in everything. Become a person that I hate. I am looking at your face, As if we never even made mistakes. If I close my eyes, for long enough. Would I die, or would I just get lost? You could find me, if you cared enough. But I'm hoping you don't. If I close my eyes for long enough would I die? I cannot pretend I haven't tried. I am hoping that you don't find me.
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Rain - Slur 05:40
Look inside In your own mind Do you find peace? On a pedestal I put you there Gasping air Swimming further than ever Look inside In your own mind In time you'll see Seeking truth But nothing's there Gasping air Swimming further than ever
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Journey south, so far away Too hard to speak, to hard to say Head in the clouds, where is the day Phantom moon, I'll wake at noon Last night, I watched myself fall asleep Then I, flew away. Facing the foot of my bed, the thoughts that float through my head. There's a weight on my chest, it's pulling me down. Scratch my eyes, I see red. There's something inside. Last night, I watched myself fall asleep Then I, flew away Don't wake up, stay with me Lost in our own daydream.
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Do you remember when your hair was long mum Do you remember when dad could drink I guess so much has changed here lately But I'm so proud of you and him Just so you know I like your hair short anyway And so you know I like it that way We're on our way to Nan's house I've got my best shirt on Are you feeling okay Because I know this journey is far too long Just so you know I like your hair short anyway And so you know I like it that way Even though you listen to the radio so quietly and talk all the way through I'd still sing songs on the motorway with you any day Anyway Even though you listen to the radio so quietly and talk all the way through I'd still sing songs on the motorway with you any day Anyway
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I hope you know I cared, Sorry I wasn't there. Promise this isn't the end. You were my best friend. I found a hair in every single thing I own. Your bed is waiting there for you come back home. Come back home.
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I never told you enough, it was always you keeping me up. Now I stare at these blank walls, while I wait for your phone call. It’s like I’m waiting for the weather to change. I guess I’m at it again. Draft a letter to a realist when I knew you wouldn’t read it. It says I hope you don’t mind but I’ve been wasting my precious time, wishing I got this right. It’s another long night, I feel like staying up till it gets light. You make this easy on me. It reminds me how hard I tried. I sit around with my head on this desk. Try to write myself out of this mess, and you can have what’s left. There's a fading light on the coast and you're the only one who knows. If you get caught up in the water I'll keep you afloat. Dragging this up again, when I wish I could I’d sit it out. It turns out that when you’re away is when I really need you around. Sometimes this place just feels, like a memory of a town. I’ve been thinking about giving myself to the lost and found. There's a fading light on the coast, you're the only one who knows. If you get caught up in the water I'll keep you afloat. The river wears me down. You’re the only one I’ve told. Your voice always catches in the static on the phone. With so much sky between us, no wonder we're alone. I can hear your words as they delay. I should try and take this day by day. You could hardly be further from me. I’m just bad news looking for company.
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You are loved by everyone. You can fight on your own. Take my hand, we'll go anywhere. In the dark, where they won't see. You're a wildcard for sure. You will knock and run. You will try to make friends. Take my hand, we'll go anywhere. With the sharks, where they won't hear. You're a wildcard for sure.
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This sickness won't ever leave us, However much I wish it could Because night upon night of driving is wearing us down, I'm claustrophobic, I'm barely breathing. I know that we can keep a secret, but it's hard to hide the black cloud, Above our heads, because it's making us nauseous. I swear, I promise, everything will be fine. I'm spinning, It's all spilling out of my skull
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tried to make a memory ended up just driving around quiet town every end was dead to me lightning struck before the sound coming down nightfall drowning heavy cleansing reprimanded lament there's a front porch light burning somewhere, softly but I can't find a reason to follow its glow though it used to be mine, it becomes so haunting when I see what's inside of the place I don't want to call home it's just everything I thought that I knew wasn't true hero becomes enemy; what's a son in season to do? I still need you moonlight dances through the branches fall is summer's descent there's a front porch light burning somewhere, softly but I can't find a reason to follow its glow though it used to be mine, it becomes so haunting when I see what's inside of the place I don't want to call I think you should explain yourself to someone maybe you should explain yourself to someone do I say what only makes sense in writing? you're fighting a decade just passed through my room I think you should explain yourself to someone maybe you should explain yourself to someone I think you should explain yourself to someone or just be another dismay to further my gloom
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Day one, on my own, it's so cold in this house I don't want to bother, but I know that I've found A place I need to be You know that it hurts, I got what I need Be happy, be happy, The ones who love you still love you now You're lonely, so lonely In a house that's not quite home I'm not a saint or a sinner in my eyes, If we followed our moral compasses inside, We'd shine not fade away The pictures strip from the wall, a sold sign hangs from the door, It won't be the same, history was made here We piled the boxes on stairs, handwritten fragile take care Left with the last remains of the past ten years
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Faux - Shoes 03:28
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I just called, to check that you're fine, Because I left you alone, tonight, I wanted to hear about your day, I’m on the other side, and I wish you were on your way. I’m leaving today, Not sure where to go, As long as I take you with me, I’ll always be at home. I just called, to drop you a line, I'm pulling you in now, so hold on tight, I wanted to tell you, about the greener side, But I'd trade it all just to be with you tonight. I’m leaving today, Not sure where to go, As long as I take you with me, I’ll always be at home. Hold on, and wait for me to come back for you, I will come back for you.
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Why would I even try? The thought of getting out of bed Makes me feel like shit I wish I could wake up in the mornings I wish I could wake up at all Can you make me happy? Drag me to life amidst the hopelessness I really fucking doubt it I wish I could wake up in the mornings I wish I could wake up at all
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i've got this feeling in my bones you'll be around for the summer you've got that natural glow it makes me sick to my stomach you can't make that hasty exit if you're running on fumes i'll be making my escape before morning you had such a way with words now you just hum the tune of a song that you profess to despise if it's all under control then what the hell am i doing yelling for nothing at all and wondering how this all happened you can't stop the room from spinning if you're rolling your eyes you won't listen if i tell you the truth you had such a pretty smile it disappeared with your youth no you only use your mouth as a weapon i don't belong here i have to get out "good riddance" said the voice in my head i don't belong here i have to get out "good riddance" she said
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Tilde - Gaze 02:47
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I never meant to fall away from you but you let me go. I've got my ear pressed up to the wall because you closed the door behind you. But I'm on the mend. I hope that makes you happy I want it to. You save your skin. (Just tell me I'm not good enough) I'll learn to let go. (You just cut me off, you just cut me off) I never meant to hide away from you but I let myself go, The darkness swallowed me whole. How could I get it so wrong? I thought the light that shined inside you was enough to keep me bright too. You save your skin. (Just tell me I'm not good enough) I'll learn to let go. (You just cut me off, you just cut me off) Space. Never needed space. I'll wait around to test my patience, I'll hold off the conversation. Space. Never needed space. Just like you do, I'll hold it down just to impress you. You save your skin. You just cut me off. You save your skin. (Just tell me I'm not good enough) I'll learn to let go. (You just cut me off, you just cut me off)
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I can’t feel the warmth of this world Running through my bones
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Flies on walls would see nothing interesting if they came to my room. They may wish for their doom as an end to the monotony. Cause I just sit and read, sleep, eat, then repeat. Contemplate a life change, choose a path, set a date. Anything but today is within reach. But the best people I know they don't think before they leap. Live on autopilot. Never doubt what they believe. But now everything I see is so contradictory. Only thing for certain is uncertainty. So armed with that knowledge, lets go flick the switch. Yeh good times might unwind if we turn off our minds. See the worth when they say 'at least you tried'.
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Come back to me, And tell me when I can stop thinking ahead. None of us are going to see, We won't reach the twenty second century. Come back to me, And tell me when I can stop thinking still. If you're wondering when you lie down for the last time, Which faces will make the past, It'll be the ones that you never got through to. Days like today don't mean a thing to me. Losing hair, losing sleep, Losing weight, time's slipping away from me, Will this be one of those times, When you let me in on your perception. In a years time I won't be doing this, The faces will fade, The names will change. Stories blurred into pages, In the book that a homeless man read, When there's less weddings that funerals, What are we really waiting for. This morning I spent half an hour, Working out what day it is. I guess fifteen miles wore me thin. The picture frame stays the same, Try and make space to make mistakes, I see shadows take my place.
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This house is haunted I swear Bullshit and assholes everywhere Anxiety I hold my breath Ive got to keep myself from lashing out I've got to level out Collect my thoughts Cuz I ain't taking this shit no more This house has demons I swear Forgetting why I chose to live here Chivalry it must have died The day that none of you made it out alive I don't appreciate and won't appease And I ain't taking this shit no more I'm still saluting magpies Like its the only thing Keeping me alive This is the darkest place I know
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There is no such thing as unnatural There is no such thing as abnormal And if someone says you are unnatural You should tell them to fuck off ‘Cos if you can do it then it’s human nature If you wanna do it then it’s human nature
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I don't eat. I don't sleep. I do nothing but think of you. You keep me under your spell.

about

UPDATE 19/04/16 - Downloads have now been CLOSED for this compilation. You can still donate to mind by visiting www.mind.org.uk

This a collection songs curated by Close To Home Records.

The aim was to bring together a selection of bands to show support, and raise awareness of mental health issues that affect a lot of people every day. On top of that, all profits from the downloads will be donated to MIND.

Somehow in 2015, we're still not quite at a point in society where someone can feel comfortable with talking about the fact they might be suffering from a mental illness. We're still not at a point where we naturally offer mental health sufferers the support they need. These things should go without saying, but unfortunately, way to often, I open a news tab on the internet or a page in a news paper and I see someone who is given a platform to spread the complete wrong message when it comes to mental health. Not only are we not offering enough help and understanding, we're boosting the signal of morons who don't understand what it's like.

So, hopefully this reaches someone and helps them understand that what they're going through is normal. It happens to a LOT of people.

And guess what? Without getting personal, almost every band and record label involved with the tracks on this compilation explained that they or someone close to them had been affected by mental health issues in the past. A lot of them also explained how they had mad it through the other side.

So if you're reading this and you think you may be suffering, it's okay.

You're not alone.

Someone has been there before and they've made out just fine.

You can do it too.



For more info please head to the following links:

www.mind.org.uk/information-support/

www.hatw.co.uk/about

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released December 3, 2015

I would like to thank every band who took the time to support this cause, along with special thanks to Thomas Dreux at SideOneDummy, Chris Lafferty at Get Into It Recs, Lucy Crichton for designing the artwork and Jamie Otsa for help with PR.

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